Haha imagine that. But yes, I do actually like school. Baruch has opened up endless opportunities for me. I was rejected from the internship program I really wanted, and I felt horrible for a while, but afterwards, I've just been finding one thing after another. I'm executive board in one club, running for executive board in my honor society, and I'm taking a whole bunch of honors accelerated class without the prerequisites. Next term, I'm taking a special class on fiction writing hosted by a published author (whose name I will post when I remember it.) I can't wait. =)
My name is Mona and over the past few days I've become increasingly sick.
It all started on Thursday when I woke up in the morning and painfully discovered I had a urinary tract infection. I went on to do some research about it, learning that there were a handful of ways I could possibly treat it on my own without going to the doctor. I also learned that 75-90% of urinary tract infections around my age are caused by sexual intercourse.
Now, I might add in that I come from a strict family. I'm not allowed to have sex under any circumstances before I'm married, let alone date. So I was worried that my parents would come to this conclusion and kill me if they found out. If they did, I can guarantee you that my father would probably stab me to death. So I put my faith in home remedies with the hopes that I could cure it on my own.
Turns out I was wrong. The UTI has become steadily worse. I woke up at 5 in the morning, and I have massive cramps in my kidneys. This was one of the signs that I read telling I should be in the emergency room right now.
But here I am, while my family sleeps peacefully and I'm still scared to death to say something.
So I guess things are going bad between me and Chris. I'm getting the classic you're-about-to-break-up-with-me signs from him. He's more distant with me, he picks fights, and now he's asking me for space. It's amazing, with almost 7 billion people on the world, how we're all the same. I guess it's difficult, thinking about losing the person you still believe is the love of your life. It's worse knowing that losing him is inevitable.
If I could play one song on the guitar, just one song in the whole entire world, it would be this one.
Embedding was disabled. Sorry. The song is High and Dry by Radiohead. I love this song. Although my favorite part of the song is the electric guitar solo, I'd love to play the rest of it on my acoustic. Sadly though I'm tone deaf. Ah well. It's good to dream.
I watched Juno at 2am for an English research report. In case you don't know, it's a movie about a particularly sarcastic 16 year old girl who becomes pregnant by her best friend, who's quite the wuss. I found it to be a little odd, because the girl who plays Juno looks a lot like my friend who had a baby at 17.
Makes me wonder, sometimes, about when I'm going to have kids. I know I'm only 19 but I often wonder about the future. Who knows.